I completed one year at ComputNext on 05/31/2012 – yeah I survived the startup duel! Since we were heads down on V1, didn’t have much time to reflect or blog about it. Most of this week I was down with back ache, and had a lot of time to reflect upon. Following the pattern of an earlier post, here are my top 3 I love(d) and top 3 I rue(d). Again, this is all about my feelings and what I gained/ lost in the past year. Reflections on what we did correct/ wrong together as a team is out of scope here.
Things I love(d)
1) Startup Craziness
Yeah, we are crazy! We aim for the impossible, and over-achieve it. We squeeze 29 hours in a day. We are Dev/ Test/ PM/ Ops all in one. Call us whatever, we are crazy. I don’t know how to define it, or point to what exactly make some of us love startups – may be it’s the kick of getting a product out, or may be solving hard problems, or being creative or resourceful. May be all, may be none of the above. All I know is we are driven by a single vision, try to make something happen, and we make it happen. We might iterate, pivot, change or redo, but we DO something – something meaningful, something that someone wants, something that solves someone’s problem (hmm, lot of somethings here, something’s going on in my head :))
2) Learning Opportunities
3) Cool factor
I haven’t met a single person in the last year who didn’t say ‘wow’ when I introduce myself as a ‘Lead Developer @ ComputeNext, a cloud startup’. Granted cloud is ‘cool’ these days, but startups are always cooler. May be everybody thinks all the startups will end up as Instagram, but 90% startups fail. May be that risk factor makes it cooler. I don’t want to dig up why they are cool, but just want to enjoy being cool!
Things I rue(d)
As much as I enjoyed the craziness, my body kept reacting to the increased stress levels – I lost a lot of hair, greying accelerated, and I am almost addicted to caffeine. I had to do ‘body work’ every week to keep my back in shape, but it collapsed past week end. I had to stay away from work/ laptop for 3 days to be able to walk normally, but I am still at pain. My physician cannot attribute to any other reason than stress. Not injury, not physical labor. Hmmm.
2) Work/ Life Imbalance
OK, this is obvious. This is not specific to startups, but more so in startups. 6+ hours of sleep had become luxury; being around the family w/o responding to emails/ issues felt so new that kids got surprised I am even doing that. I chose this, we expected this. But visualizing something is not the same as going through it. One has to accept the reality that W/L balance sucks at startups. You are in or out. No grey area.
3) Personal Hobbies/ Projects
In a startup, one lives, breathes by it. Distractions cannot be afforded. I had at least one project I wanted to contribute to, but couldn’t do more. I was little disappointed with myself for that, but in retrospect, it is not that bad. I am already working 120%, so there is no time for an extra 20% project.
Now time to stretch my back! In the mean time, read this on why/ why not to join a startup!